Out in the town

Today was family day. Woke up this morning for mass at 10:30 at St. Chris. Twas beneficial. I actually was able to pay attention throughout the entire service with of course it's usual ADD kicking in. As bad as that may sound... I really got a lot from it... and I knew today would be a good day. The weather outside was weather. [: I'm just kidding. After mass we headed for some good ol dim sum at Diamond Plaza. Got there around 1230 and they said the wait would be 30 minutes... from 2. Uh, yeah not down. So we headed over to another Chinese Restaurant in San Dimas. Got seated right away and enjoyed the beauty of food. [: And as usual, I suffered once again from food coma and fell asleep in the car on our way to The Observatory.

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with God anything is possible
I forgot how beautiful L.A. was
can you tell my mom is scared of heights?but we're not... kindof. haah

theres no limit to the horizon
WOLLYHOOD.
Los Angeles
Ate
California sunset

Yay for camera phones!
After watching the first couple minutes of the sunset, we invited ourselves to La Palma for my Aunt's birthday and had dinner there. My cousin had Season Three of HIMYM!!! Annd I'm borrowing it. [: Yay for being caught up on seasons! I win. The end. [:

My ultimate happiness

Merry Christmas!

is food. Hahah I'm just kidding.

But Karl's right... this Christmas was different. It was more of realizing life and reality and each other's presence rather than the usual curiosity of 'what did i get for Christmas'. Honestly, after seeing the lack of a family bond at Thanksgiving, I didn't see a difference with the Christmas season so I expected the worse and hoped for nothing more. Although it seems as if the family is becoming smaller in size, the strong connection with those of us left never really seemed any stronger than these past two days. I arrived at the homes of my cousins and never really felt that much love before. That feeling of being loved unconditionally made me want more. And more so, made me realize that no matter what the family may be going through, I know I can always count on them to not only be there for me but to make me happy in ways never thought possible.

I hope everyone had a very Merry Christmas and a very safe and fun one too! Yayy for getting older and almost getting cut off from presents. ]; hahaha ohh, the sweet life of aging.

Here's some highlights. [:

There's nothing stronger
The smarter version of me [:
& my partner for Cranium
Came in third place; red marker [:
Dad's side;
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salmon spinach eggrolls with home-made Spinach & Artichoke dip
the cause of my maajor food coma .
...and the food coma begins
first victim - mom;
drunk and past out by 2:51 after 4 glasses of wine
-_-
victims 2, 3 and 4
jj, me & Auntie - out by 4
victim five - Ate
victim six - Kuya Anthony / picture not available
my girls

The Holiday

is a great movie. It really is. I totally forgot how good it is. You should watch it. And if you don't want to watch it alone, I can always watch it with you! [: I think I'm going to watch it again tonight, just like last night. Yay for me. [: hahah Well, it's that Christmas Season once again.. that season when relationships start to happen, those sparks start to fly. So there's approximately 12 to 13 people in our group of friends back in high school. And lately, all the boys in our group are in relationships. Some old, some new, some just starting. It's mad cute. It's time our boys are happy with their girls. And what makes it even better..! is the fact that just because they have girlfriends now doesn't affect them hanging out with the rest of us. It's hard to find couples like that... and it's an amazing feeling once you do. Let's see, there's Kyle and Trish - maaaaad cute right there. Ryan and Ronylyn - steezin it up all day every day. Shaun and Avic - who would've thought... I witnessed an 'iloveyou' from him to her. Dustin and Kristen - no words can describe how strong those two are. And as for the rest of us... ohhboy. I'm so glad we have each other! Shiiit. We can always work that camera. That's for damn sure. Who says you need a significant other to take cutesy pictures?! Huh, Genie!? AHAH Mann.. I remember this time last year. That experience in itself was amazing, it shaped who I am today. I can't believe it's been a year since I found out about you. And it's not like I'm at all mad or upset or still hurting, I'm none of those. I'm just super glad that we worked things out and you're crraazy happy with her. I'm happy for you two and I wish you guys the best. You, out of all people, deserve a smart pretty girl like her and I'm glad you found one. Stay honest and faithful - she deserves that much and more.

In a different light, I don't want to hurt you like I hurt the rest but I'm starting to get that gut feeling in my body when things start to go down. I was and I still am glad you're respecting my space and maybe this is just me thinking too little and acting too much but ... I really hope you and I are still on the same level as we were 3 days ago. Time changes but I hope we didn't. At least, not that much. I don't want you to just be another boy. I don't want you to be just another someone I talk to and end up hurting. Trust me, I don't do it intentionally. I guess, my last relationship kind of had a somewhat negative toll on me in time. It's been a year and my perspective on relationships hasn't been all that great, I must admit. I mean... I love it when I see new couples and potential relationships and whatnot but me personally in one... doesn't really flow too well in my mind. I wish I wasn't like this. I wish I didn't seem so picky. But it is what it is, right? Hopefully things work out. and no matter what does happen just know you mean a lot to me. [: kbye.

PICTURE TIME! [:

Annual Christmas Dinner
ladies
fellas
<3
Stefanee Taylor Blas; niece 3yrs. old
Tressa Vi Ureta Blas; niece 2yrs old;
cutest little boy rockin' creative recs and an iphone; 8yrs.old
so many little babies [:

Rainbows are lucky

Updating this thing every day is kinda not happenin for me. Well, let's recap some of the eventful moments that's happened for the past week or so. From what I can remember, my first quarter of college ended... and ohhmy. College really is something. I passed all my remedial classes! B in English and C in Math. [: and then.... I failed my other class. -_-" uh. yeeeahh. haha great. Well, next quarter I'm taking 16 units. fml. I think I can do it. I know I can do it. I just gotta put a major limit to my ADD. I had my last final on the 12th but stayed at my dorm until the 18th because of hell week. My first ever performance was on Thursday at Arcadia High School's sold out Charity Show. Hell week and the performance were absolutely amazing. I was finally able to feel that rush, that excitement, those nervous butterflies... and I'm soo glad that some of the closest people I have in my life were able to come and watch. I truly am lucky.

I came home Thursday night expecting attitude from my Mom but received none. Her and I hung out all day Friday and the first thing she said to me in the car was, "I'm glad you came home. I thought you weren't going to." [[[[[[[[[: Seriously. That's a big step for her. It caught me off guard and after that my heart couldn't stop smiling. She's never said anything like that to me before and it just makes me soo happy. Things could start looking up for 2009. I hope. Went shopping for 7 hours straight. Oh! And I got to see some of the Junior babies at the mall! Junior babies are now big bad seniors. They're so cute and they really made me miss Amat... surprisingly. hahah Went home and waited to get picked up by Genie, Kathryn and Lion. Surprised Lissette at her house for her 19th birthday! Yay! I hope she was happy. Saw Krystina there too and a couple other people. Bf took me home later that night. Good conversations to end the night are always healthy. I was supposed to wake up at 915 the next morning but my distraction didn't let me sleep until 5 or a little passed that. THANKS! asshole. [: [x

Tressa Vi's 2nd Birthday! I have never been surrounded by so many babies and toddlers in my life. They are just thee cutest! I love my family and I missed them soo much. Came home and got ready for our annual Amat dinner at Macaroni Grill by the Puente Hills Mall. Twas fun and well needed. I miss my Amat friends a lot.. even though it didn't seem like that in the beginning, I did. [:

Good conversation last night too [: Five hour conversations are alwaysss my favorite.!

RAINBOWS. are lucky. Today was a beautiful day, most definitely. Finally went to church after more than a month. I totally forgot it was Advent. -_- ahahha thats so bad, considering my 12 years of religious education. Ops! ahahhah Went to the mall and got a case for my phone then ate at ChowKing. Surprisingly, my luck kicked in quick and I spotted him. Ahahah shit was soo random. Who would've thought, right?! [[[: It was good and it made me really kinda happy acutally. It was weird though! I got some butterflies. =X HAAA. okay. enough. the end. [:

timeout.
How do I post pictures on this thing? Is there like a special way to do it? and to resize it also?

My dream

was so sad last night. ]; It was my eighteenth birthday debut... at an actual hall this time. Family across the world flew in and it was all amazing. Then, when it came to making speeches and hearing speeches - all went downhill. I don't remember exactly what was said or a play-by-play of the dream but all I remember is listening to my mom's speech to me. In front of everyone, the first thing she says to start off her "loving and proud speech" would be: "Why do you act like this? Why do you hate me? and Why do you treat me this way?" I was amazed. My sister sitting right there next to me, amazed as well. My dad looking down not wanting to face what just happened. Ha... and there it is. My life at home. Her outfit was decent but not one of a Debutante's mother. She got called out but still continued with her speech about how not proud she was of me and about the problems that are between her and I. I loved it, I say... best birthday present. -_-" She went on and on and on... and then... I woke up. I remember that feeling though. That feeling of embarrassment, that feeling of not being good enough and that feeling of just not giving a fuck. I hate that feeling. I woke up so many times last night. One at 248, another at 4, another at 530, one at 607 and finally at 838. I don't know what's wrong with me. I really do miss my family though. Ate said that the only time they could go Christmas Shopping would be Saturday. Too bad I can't go. Mann, I don't know, this whole college thing. Come to think of it, it's amazing and whatnot, but lately I've been feeling so discouraged from it all. Everything in my life nowadays doesn't seem to hold up to it's highest potential anymore. It's actually kinda sad.

Anyway, on a happy note. He learned Mad on the piano! Ahahah ohhmy. Major points for that. [: Hm... Idkno. I'm actually giving this one a shot.. which is kinda weird. I love my single life and I'm not expecting anything more or less. But compared to the others, I'm actually allowing myself to be opened to the idea. Ew. I can't even talk about this. I'm too distracted. Hahha I'm just gonna keep all that to myself for now just to eliminate all the questions if nothing does happen.

For now... I can't say aloud that I'm happy. Not like I used to. Matter of fact, I'm not really sure how I feel. I'm content. yet excited and hurting at the same time. Oh well, I think I just need to surround myself with people that love me... like my family back at home or my Amat family. I miss both soo much. I think that's why I'm hurting and not really happy. Till next time I guess..

Nonstop

busy. This is getting ridiculous. Although I love always having something to do every hour of the day, sometimes it just gets crazy and half the time I just lose myself. Friday was hella busy for me. I've never been that busy with school this entire quarter. Walking around school, attending class and 3 hours of make-up tutoring took the life out of me most definitely. I guess the whole... "skipping class" ordeal bit me in the ass cause I finally realized earlier in the week that Fall Quarter ends in less that 14 days and in order to pass English, I had to have completed 8 hours of tutoring. LAME. On a better note, I got my math quiz back! MINUS 3 bitches! Woo! [[: I'm suuper happy about that one. Oh and in between my busy schedule I'm glad I got to spend some time with Devon. I swear, seeing that nigga always makes me happy. Every Friday after English asking him where he's at but knowing every single time in the back of my head that he's in the same exact spot in the library like every Friday. I just hope and wonder sometimes that maybe... just maybe he'd be somewhere different. I was kinda surprised, too, that within the first 30 minutes of hanging out not once did he mention his stomach and how empty it is. hahah That kinda took away from our weekly Friday sessions. But it's okay cause after I was all done with everything, I met him at the Marketplace and we ordered Panda just before it was gonna close. [: Yay food. THEN. Devon's FAIL or I guess you can say, "HEROIC ATTEMPT" to save me from a bee. Yet, the only thing I see is my bowl of rice and my fork flying in the air and all over the people sitting next to us. HAAHAA Epic.. so epic. I loved it. He went on telling me about the wonderful birthday celebrations he had and his oh so delicious American Thanksgiving. At least one of us came up for Thanksgiving. -_-" Walked back to my dorm afterwards and knocked the fuck out. Saw Charlotte sleeping and was convinced that taking a nap was a must. From 4 to 630 - mm soo healthy. [: Took a shower cause Krystina and Genie were finally visiting me at my dorm! YAAAAAAAAAAY! It's a great feeling waking up to old friend's phone calls saying they're going to visit [: They finally arrived and didn't get lost - thanks to my awesome sense of direction. haha [: Ate at that one pizza place that Karissa works in at the Village. It was good seeing her after so long. How long has it been? 4 or 5 years? Holy crap maan! loll okay. So after dinner we decided to take Charlotte to Cue. bahahah! So cute. Overwhelming but always fun. Came back home and tried to do something productive but of course... failed at it.

SATURDAY. [:
Wsup Prelude SoCal ! Oh mann I was soo excited. It's all so REAL in person. Gigz picked me up and then met up with Nick, Texas and Jenise at Jenise's house. Carpooled and headed over to Guppy's. MM guppy's. Shaved ice and extra spicy popcorn chicken. Boo for cramps and ulcers.!! GAH. Total buzz kill for a good hour or so. ]; Anyway, Prelude was amazing! Saw the competition and now it just boosted up every part of my body and mind to work so much harder! Shits tough out there - I finally understand. After Prelude we couldn't go to Sam's anymore cause it was hella far and late. Sorry babygirl ]; I hope you had a great time though! Instead went over to Rooted and chilled there. Got a ride back from Alex and knocked out right after. [:

TODAY.
Revise English paper, study for my math final on Wednesday and go to practice tonight. [: Come to think of it, I actually miss my family. I haven't spoken to them in so long, at least that's what it feels like. I'll maybe update later cause I'm sure I'll be procrastinating during my paper. We'll see. The end. [:


p.s. After playing around with Byron's camera, I can't wait to get mine! gahh!!

IN

HA! I already failed. I didn't blog yesterday. HAHAH ohman. Okay so anyway, I studied so much Monday night into the wee hours of Tuesday's Morning for an exam that I failed straight off the bat. This is retarded. I thought yesterday was going to be a great day when it came to my classes- I even got out early for my English class and the homework due date got changed to Friday instead of yesterday. Then came 1130 when I had to walk to class to take my Excel exam. Holy crap maaan! That shit was HARD. [that's what she said?] HA. NO. but really though. Straight from there I had to walk over to my Math class at 1 and take a quiz I thought I was going to fail. Luckily, I really feel like I passed. [: Yay for me! haha. Oh! Then Genie and I played a little game of phone tag for awhile right before I walked in for my class.. those are always fun [: Greg and I walked to the API after class, got to see my Ate and Justin and then Mark and Karl swung by with Panda cause Jay was working soo Greg and I decided to go and hit that up. mmm inexpensive Panda: my favoritee [: haha. Elfster was brought up in a conversation between Mark and I and it somehow evolved into asking RJ how if he were a banana how would he want to be pealed? It had to be the funniest conversation that day. I like it in threes with one stroke down, Mark likes it in twos, RJ likes it in threes with one stroke up and Gerard likes it slowly also in threes. Intense? I think so. After that I went with Mark and Gerard to the DC House and watched Wall-E for the first time! Gahh! It was a great movie. Karl showed up during the movie and then ended up finishing it with me watching as I took pictures with my enV2 of the actual movie [: Ha whatever! I got good pictures, pictures that are now my wallpaper. :D ahah yeeah. Karl left and then more people started coming over. Hung out for awhile and then Mark took me back to my dorm. An hour later, went out and had a really fun and instense catch-up/update session with my friend who would like to remain Anonymous. Im just kidding. But uhm then... waited outside Alamitos for Sam to open up the door but never did cause she was too lazy. So instead we had a 15 minute conversation over the phone. Twas a fun night indeed. Now that I look at it, yesterday was filled with a great positive vibe that I want more of. Hopefully today goes well, it's still early and I have a lot of errands to run around campus and an intense practice tonight, I think. -_- great. I'm a bit afraid but not at the same time. Tomorrow's Sam's birthday! Babygirl is getting ooold! But I love her nonetheless. She is definitely my life entertainment. The end.




p.s. I'm finally IN. [[[[[x ... took my Mom 3 years but she's finally starting to get it.

Karl

So Karl's right. I don't blog often. Maybe December will be different; or maybe! 2009 will be different. o0o0o who knows! Hahah. I think I should make this a daily thing though... blogging and writing is healthy... right? It's better than getting distracted by Facebook and YouTube and whatnot. So yeahh... I'm gonna try this.

Alright, so last night wasn't that great. Well, besides the fact that I forced and pushed myself to finish the bigger part of my English assignment and the fact that Alex brought me a pretzel and cheese from work... the people living upstairs were being SO LOUD. And I absolutely looove waking up at 3:58 in the morning to them talking and laughing outside or them blasting music and drunk upstairs. It's my favorite! -_-" ugh. So after not being able to go back to sleep right away, I woke up at 7:45 right when Charlotte was going to class and couldn't go back anymore. My original goal was to wake up at 8 finish my English assignment then do practice exams for my Excel Exam tomorrow. But its its currently 3:30 in the afternoon and I haven't done ANYTHING! This is so bad. My A.D.D. is acting up soo much!! Oh, and I've gotten into this habit of making videos on Facebook. Who knew... it's pretty addicting! And I'm not going to practice tonight cause it's Tita Elvie's last night here before she heads back to the Philippines tomorrow morning. So we're having like a dinner thing for her. Kinda sad how I dont really know her yet she's leaving and it's probably the last time I see her. mmm hopefully tonight goes well though. Okay, I'm done. [:

Thanks Karl ! Bye Karl !